Pocatello

So being the creature of habbit that I am, life has started to hit. Well it hasn't started. It has hit. After my missionaries (a.k.a. my best friends) started to leave and nearly all have left. I started to figure out my comfort zone was leaving. Really what would be the point of not doing anything. I mean I already had the plan to come to pokie this fall I just wasn't really very excited. Then again with life being so good who would want to leave? Those friends are the best friends anyone could ever ask for. So when reality comes knocking its a rather rough experience. For some reason people think that when they all come back we will all just fit back together. Well I am not so sure. Two years is a lot of time for us to all change. For all I know I could be married by the time. Plus missionaries vs college thats kind of a different setting. I mean it is possible that when they all get home we could still be friends, but its very unlikely. Well I guess time will tell with that one. As for now I feel a lot better for moving. I hear from my Elders once a week. Not from all of them once a week, but I at least hear from one of them once a week. Letters pretty much save me when I am having a hard time. Gotta love the excitement from them. They are crazy, but I love it. Well almost all my boys are on thier adventure. So now its time for mine. I have offically moved in. I am living in Bengal Creek. Its a really nice apartment, esp for college. At least I think so. I have three roommates. I know one from dance. We danced together at IDS for two years then tried out for Bengals together and made it. So we are on the team and roommates which is nice. Esp because we have one roommate who already lives here and we haven't actually met her yet. I said hi to her and she said hello and kept walking. So not really sure how all that is going to go. Then our last roommate should be moving into today. We know her first inital and her last name. Which Kelbee (the one I dance with) Thinks she knows her and lets just say it could get very intersting. However we are not sure yet so we are staying positive. The dance team has been the craziest thing I have every done. Camp was in Milwaukee. It was rather intense, but it was good. We start with Fred today. Not going to lie I am scared out of my mind. My teammates make him sound scary and intesnse. So I guess we will see how that all goes down. Oh kinda weird tidbit. I am basically a cheerleader. Not really what I had in mind. Its not too bad tho, meaning its just a few things that we do thats similar to Cheer. We are still very much a dance team. Lol well thats really about it for now. I will try to keep this up, even tho I don't think anyone actually reads this. Go team. :P

Bengal Dancers

Well talk about crazy. So I some what randomly decided to go to the second tryouts for the Bengal dancers. I kinda got talked into it, the "what could it hurt? It will be a great experience" type stuff. So whatever I went. Well.... I made it! Still in shock and like... uh... what did I just do!! I am so freaking scared out of my mind. I was not even thinking about going to ISU anymore and now I am!! I will have to go full time, and college does not sound like a happy thing, so... it will be intersting for sure. I am the most scared for the team though! I really don't want to hate dance. Sadly chances are I will get super stressed and pushed beyond any limit I knew I had. Does not help that people keep freaking me out. I am totally getting out of any comfort zone I have. The people I will be around will be, something very different then what I am used to. Ah... basically I am freaking out and scared. I know that if this is what I am supposed to be doing everything will be great and amazing and all that jazz. But like I said, this happend all so fast. I still dont even know what I am doing. Guess I will find out more this weekend. So as of now I am looking for a place to live in Pokie. I am now Black and Orange, a Bengal, and just throwing myself into something very unexpected. Just close my eyes and run! ISU here I come!

Curiosity

Well I will openly admit that I am a creature of habit. I get set in what I am doing and do it. During the week I dance then on the weekends I hang out with my friends and go to church. Obviously I do other things as well, but those are what I always do without fail. So when I know that it is going to change. It causes a little bit of a panic! Well lets just say reality is setting in. My best friends are leaving on missions and are in college. Although living at home rent free would be oh so exciting. I need to experience life. Now figuring out what to do has been taking a lot longer then I thought. My plan fell through, then the one after that... then the one after that. So I stopped trying to figure out what to do. I have some rather interesting options, but I just have no idea. I will find more out next week. So... I shall keep you upadated on that part. I do feel the pressure. It seems like everyone keeps bringing up the "H" or "M" word. A few have even thrown out the "B" word. It is kinda freaking me out!! (H= husband M= marriage and B= baby. In case you were not sure.) I mean I am really excited for all of those things, but I know it will still be awhile. I want all of it, but I don't think I am ready for it just yet. I know when the time comes it will happen, but right now I am far too confused. I over think far too many things. Some of the things I over think is so crazy it makes me wonder why I am even thinking about it! Ah sorry. I don't really know the point of this post. I guess just to kinda say... I have no idea what I am doing, but something is going to happen soon, and I don't know if I am ready for this. As I said... I will keep you updated :P

Oh Ogden.

Being on a competitive dance team always has its challenges. For one you are constantly pushing your body past its limits. Not always a bad thing, it obviously makes you better, but can really break you. I have to say though, I am VERY blessed to be at the studio that I am. They never make me hate dance, only just want to be better. Any pushing that happens, doesn't make me have emotional break downs. It only makes me want to be better, because they know, and make sure that I know, that I can be better. The girls (and boy) that I dance with are phenomenal dancers. It is so awesome to be able to spend my time with them, I learn a lot and I love it. The teachers here are just.... words can't describe how great they are. They work so hard and we can tell how much they care about us. Now that I have said that. I will say the point to this. We had a showcase in Shelley and we did GREAT! We felt our dances did well, and that we would do awesome at our compititions! So our first one in Idaho Falls came up. Well we did pretty good. One team was.... lets just say the beat us! Which, it was the studio that some of my teachers went to growing up, so really we understood. Espcially because our studio is only on its third year! So we were still feeling pretty good. Then comes Ogden. Utah dancers are, well AMAZING. So watching solos the night before I couldn't stop thinking "we are so screwed." Well saturday came and it was time for us to dance. Speed Racer was first and well... It didn't go very well. I think we were just scared. Who wouldn't be though really. They are all ballerinas with perfect lines, perfect kicks, perfect turns... They were a force to be reckoned with. However! The hip hop was, well a little sad. So we go out with our Skippin dance, and it was the best we have ever done it. It felt SO good!! AH! Well the rest of the day happens and we are now sitting waiting to hear what the results are. Well our minis, and smalls kick butt! Our Jrs and us do... well... alright. Again, our hip hop did great! Our jazz/contep. not so much! So, just so you know, the winning soloist, and dance (not team, just dance) would get to perform with a professional group called Odyssey the following week. Well I don't know about the other dancers, but I didn't have my hopes up. So we get placed and they start to announce the top three dances. 3rd... 2nd... we didnt get either. Then first comes. They announce. SKIPPIN! Needless to say we all freaked out. Our teachers ran up and hugged us, we were screaming.. crying. Oh... it was happiness. =D So Utah... We will be working much harder in ballet to try to catch up with technique, but we will forever know that an Idaho Falls team, the underdogs of the compitition, came... and got the higest score. Which then gave us the opportunity of a a life time. Odyssey.

Visiting Teaching

Ok so, I know that growing up is always a little shocking, but for some reason this one is one of those.... wow, I am growing up moments. Well first off going from Young Womens to Relief society was took a little getting used to. I have to admit, I do like it a TON more then I thought I would. However, something that I should have expected has suddenly taken me totally off guard! I have visiting teachers.... and I am going to be one. That is just so wierd to me!! Could be that any females I am ever really actually around are high school age... but ya know... whatever. Anyway, I thought I would share my up and coming "right of passage"

Stupor of Thought

Life is a funny thing. No really, you never look at it as funny, but it can be. We stress ourselves out. I will admit life gives us tricks that, well make life suck. Although, how often is it ourselves who make it worse? I don't know. It just seems like everything has been go crazy. So many aspects of my life and family are changing. I don't mean little things, like.. major life altering changes. It is scary, and very confusing. I won't go into the family details, they are not mine to tell. I will explain where this is coming from. Every since graduation I have gotten the questions everyone gets. "Where are you going to go to school?" or "What are your plans now?" Basicly... What are you going to do with your life? I know I know, everyone goes through this. "Tis the age of change." I understand that. I am up for that. High school is done, time to move one and do something with your life. Ok, makes sense.... but wait, what do I do? Another normal question. It is no longer the simple fireman, doctor, or vet answer. It is an actual question that when you decide, affects the rest of your life. Yup. Talk about scary. Well I have made up my mind of what I want to be. Stay at home Mom. Well, it seems that may not be as easy as it seems! Well I have to get married. Which means I would have to be somewhere to actually meet someone. Then if I do fall in love, will he be able make it possible for me to stay home? (When I actually start having kids) All super fun stuff eh? Well I decided in high school that my college of choice was ISU. God had other ideas. I have tried a few different times to get myself there, but it never really works out. So I decided to try something else. So now the famous question comes. But what? Oh I can't even tell you how much I have struggled with this question. A lot of tears and a lot of talks with my parents and of course God. I have figured out the the more I push to find the answer, the farther away I get to it. I am not letting god help me, I think I am, but I am really not. Well past few months have been interesting, but I think I am on to something! Now... I just need to double check with the big man upstairs. Then this is where I get lost again. How do I understand him?? When do I know what is what, who is who. All that madness. Well god knows me very very well. He has been leading me to find the answer, I am just stubborn and fail to see how much he is doing. With church, friends, and my unbelievable parents I am slowly but surely getting there. Arlight, well... my point to this really song post (sorry!) was to talk about this book, the one in the picture. Hearing the Voice of the Lord. Yup, its a book on Principles and Patters of Personal Revelation. Honestly I am only on page 23 out of 362 but already its helping, I have learned a lot in so few pages!! I feel a comfort about this, that it will help me with knowing when it is the spirit or just me. Will take practice, but will help. To my family, if anyone of you even reads this. I feel like this book should be something you look into as well. Anyone for that matter. I am soo not a book person, but this is worth it. Times are hard, oh so hard, but with the lord you can do anything. Stress, anger, fear, or anything will get in the way of doing what is right. I don't know how to explain what I am feeling, but I know that everyone I love who is struggling, will be ok. May take time, but it will happen! I am so not making the points I wanted to with this. Sorry, I am just not a writer. But, read this book, really. The more you talk to God, the better your choices. Good luck, life is what it is. Love and be loved.

Catching up

Alright it seems this blogging thing has become more and more popular. My family, friends, and "work" have blogs. I just thought maybe I should jump on the band wagon. Alright... I guess I should explain me or what I have been doing. This is all still rather weird so I am sorry if I am not very good at this Blog thing. I also don't have the greatest writing skills, I will understand if you get bored and ignore this. I am an 18 year old high school grad. I haven't started college. Don't worry, I will not go to deeply into the mess that I call my mind right now. I am a dance teacher for Infinity Dance Studio and love it. Teaching always scared me, and it still is very much a learning exprience, but I am sooo very greatful for the chance to teach. The girls are amazing and I can see they are learning, which is a very good feeling! Not only am I teaching, but am on the Jazzerette dance team with Infinity. Yeah I am the oldest one on the team. Yes they are all in high school and some are not even there yet. However I am still learning a lot and man do I love dance. Its hard to explain what Infinity has done for me. They have helped me with who I am in so many ways. I will be forever greatful for what the teachers have done for me. I slack in showing my appreciation for them, but I do love them all! What will happen at the end of this year is a total guess, but I hope to be able to still dance some how as long as I possibly can, but we will see how things pan out. Well honestly thats pretty much about it. I dance, and hang out with my dorky friends who I love. Thats pretty much it. I do have a new found love for photography, but I am very much a beginner, but with all things... Practice makes Perfect! I am far from perfection on any level, but never hurts to try right? Alright, I think... thats it for now. Sorry if I have bored you with pointless information that will do you no good, but if you read for this long, you must have some intrest :P I will try to do better with "blogging" and see where life takes me.